foolishness ceases to fail...

the black cloud seems to hv descended and has now created a storm in my heart.i hv obviously realised there is only one person that can umbrella my anguish.the very same person who caused it.this afternoon i found the house just fine.it was lunch that left me disappointed.normally the loud and happy one,i was dull and withdrawn.answering my friends questions with as little vigour and words possible and not contributing to the get together in any memorable way.infact the entire thing was forgetful.it was prob the result of an error in my choice of company but it was me as well.as we said our goodbyes someone even commented on how very quiet i was.it even left me wonderin what happened to my zealous demeanour and whether i actually had one to begin with...i hv also realised that the only therapy i need is from within and not from shoppin or the gals.i've realised it- but have no idea wat to do now.